"Thats how I learned to hold back all feeling"

I'm not one to show my true emotions and soon you'll see why.

I was once very soft and to learn very quickly to be hard. 

I cried about every little thing, and was often scolded for it.

So I learned how to push my emotions aside, and just do what I was told.

I learned how to silence my tears untill I was alone.

I learned to scream when no one was home.

I learned how to keep things to myself.

I learned how to not show my emotion on the outside.

And i learned how to become numb.

Numb to the happiness, numb to the pain.

Numb to the kindness, numb to the shame.

Untill, over time, I was nothing but numb.

Forced to violence, just so I can feel again.

And now you  know why I hold back all feeling.

Why I hide my make-up smeared eyes.  

Now go tell everyone, I don't care.

Tell everyone that I'm a heartless bitch that dosen't feel. 

Just remember me.

Amd know that when I'm gone,

you'll be one of the reasons why.

They Knew To Little

She wakes up every mourning, and puts a fake smile on her face.
She goes to school and on lives through a masqurade.
They all think she's the happiest person that ever lived.
But when she gets home, she tucks the smile away and pulls the razor out.
And with the razor comes the sorrow and the pain that she hides so well.
Everyday it's the same.
The blood always follows the plastered on smiles, that no one can see past.
But one day she cut to deep, and bleed to death on the bathroom floor.
They could have saved her, but that's one mistake they'll never be able to take back.
They knew to little, and for that she payed the price.
Never to live a full and plentafull life.
So let this be a warning, to those who are blind.
That there is always more to a person, then whats on the outside.